Oh, geez...

What a fucking week. Omg.

My laptop wouldn't charge anymore and it finally died. Apparently, the pin inside is broken but it's attached to the motherboard so I have to send it out to the manufacturer to get fixed. Because I can't not have a computer, I bought a netbook and one of those USB wifi things. Unfortunately, it turned out to be a piece of shit and I had to buy a real sized laptop. I went to Best Buy like three days in a row.

Wednesday I went to Vegas to work for Brazzers. I love doing this. There's something I enjoy about taking day trips. It's like I get paid to take a mini vacation. I was shooting a bgg with Mariah Madysinn and Johnny Sins for Big Tits In Uniform.We were stewardesses banging our pilot. After I landed in Vegas, I called to be picked up. When I got in the car, James Deen was sitting in the front seat. He is awfully cute. He was going to fuck Mason Moore in the ass that day. I let him take a picture of my tits for his blog. We then circled the airport in search of a blonde with big tits, Mariah. She was an easy find. One of my favorite things about working for Brazzers is their efficiency. As soon as we got in, I got right into makeup, then wardroobe, stills, and paperwork.





We filmed the intro with an extra and the guy was fucking hilarious! He should really join an improv troupe or something.



Porn is fun.



The scene was great! Mariah and Johnny were wonderful. I'm quite fond of the bgg threesome; it's great fun! I had to teach Mariah what a tit 69 is and that's always a good time. ;) My only complaint was that we had to keep as much of our clothes on as possible and it was SO hot and sweaty. Haha!

After our scene we had several hours to kill before our flight left for back home. It's really hot in Las Vegas so I just roamed around the studio naked til it was time to go to the airport. Mason, James, Mariah, and I ended up in a pile for at least an hour. It was quite comfy actually. James kept making out with me. I kept grabbing Mariah's boobs.



When we got to the airport we went to this Mexican restaurant. I wanted alcohol but I hadn't really eaten anything that day. I don't like Mexican food so I asked for some chips and salsa...they don't have that. What? It's a Mexican restaurant! Well, they have them, but they come as like 3 or 4 on a plate as a garnish. It was unnaturally difficult to get this woman to just get me more than 4 chips and a cup of salsa. It was ridiculous and made me hate that woman for being so imcompetent. Anyway, so I bought a double shot of Bailey's at the bar and went next door to Starbucks. Turned out well.

We had a porn pow wow going. Lisa Ann was taking the same flight out so she had joined our group, too. So, we're all sitting there and this guy comes up to James, asks him if he's James Deen and then tells him how so very awesome he thinks he is, shakes his hand and then practically runs away. The crazy thing is that the guy didn't look gay at all, even had his girlfriend with him, but he HAS to be gay to not notice or acknowledge the 4 pairs of very large breasts surrounding James Deen. It was an entertaining encounter.



Before we had left, I grabbed this head wreath thing I thought was cool. (My version of the Doctor's fez.) I forgot I was wearing it when I got to the airport and then just decided, fuck it, it's Vegas, and wore it til we got on the plane and Mason tried it on.





I sat between James and Mason on the plane. I used James as a pillow. He does this weird thing with his hoodie that makes him look like a creeper.



Thursday I shot for Adam and Eve. The title of the DVD, I think, is Petite Young Things, but on all the paperwork they had abbreviated it to PYT, which I just thought was great and had that song stuck in my head all day. On my call sheet, it said "Please do not show up to set with wet hair." I thought I had maybe not completely dried my hair last time or that was just a standard thing to put on the call sheet. So, I REALLY dried my hair, just to be sure. As soon as I got to set, they asked me if I can swim...Um, yeah, I can swim. Good, cuz they're putting me in the pool. Ok. But as soon as I get into makeup, she tells me I'm going to have wet/oily hair the whole time and then ushers me over to the sink. I'm all for swimming and the wet look but I was SO bummed out that I had spent all that time washing and drying my hair just to have oil in it and get it all wet again. I could've slept in like a whole hour! Ah well, I wasn't going to not do it. :( So she oils me up and puts on this waterproof foundation which keeps water off but also keeps water in so, while I felt like I was sweating my ass off, my face didn't have a hint of sweat on it...it was WEIRD! And that oil! It was just like Morrocan oil and olive oil which is really good for your hair but she put a lot in it to keep the wet look intact. It worked but I couldn't get that stuff out of my hair for a couple days.



That was a really good scene, too! They had me swimming in the pool...I tried to do it all sexy like but I'm not very graceful. We'll see how it turns out. It was nice, though, I gave him a bj at the edge of the pool, then we moved to this outdoor couch. It was so hot outside that we were sooo sweaty! It was fun and slippery! Afterwards we jumped right back into the pool and it felt SO amazing!

This is where things take a bad turn... I take a lot of shit from family that doesn't approve of what I do. My immediate parents are pretty ok with it, as much as they can be. But I have other family members that insist on "saving" me and they keep interfering in my life. I don't want to get too into because I've been going back and forth for days now with them and everyone else. And I don't want to share too much about my family here. It's just one of those arguments that keeps going because no one is going to back down but yet, they insist on pressing and trying to convince and bug me about it. So basically, I've been arguing nonstop for like 3 days. There was a kind of intervention and an attempt to send me to a Christian 12 step program, like in that movie "But, I'm A Cheerleader". I hate to say it but, it's all because they're Christian. I understand how their religion makes them think that what I do is inappropriate, but while they're trying to force their beliefs on me, I wouldn't try to convince them out of Christianity. I just want them to leave me alone. I don't need saving. I am a good, happy, law abiding person that is totally comfortable with their lifestyle.

So, yeah, sorry if I was a bit absent from internetland this past weekend. To de-stress from all that nonsense, I decided to take a few days to myself. I went shopping. Bought some new shoes, sunglasses, Star Wars Legos, and a new bong. I love my new bong. I think it looks "sciencey".



Legos are fun, too.



I'm very excited to go to that DVD release party Friday night, I could use a good partyin. Until then, I'm going to smoke a lot of bowls and build a Lego TIE fighter.

I just got booked for a bgg tomorrow. Awesome. The girl is Ella Milano and she is fucking gorgeous! It'll be a good time.

Boobs.

Slightly epic...

My schedule has kind of leveled off lately. It's been a welcome pace considering some of the personal stuff that's been stealing my attention lately. We'll get to that later...

I had a Naughty America couple of days. Haha! I shot a scene for My Sister's Hot Friend. That was an awesome day and an awesome scene. It was one of those days that just went very smoothly and simply AND the sex was good! It was even a short day, which I was very thankful for because I had to get up early the next day to catch the train to San Diego. I love taking the train over there. I don't have to deal with traffic, I can sleep, I can do my hair and makeup in the decent sized bathroom. It's a very nice experience. The view is gorgeous. Anyway, this was my second time doing Naughty America Live and a lot of things had changed since I'd been there last. I thought the earpiece would be really difficult to pull off but it was actually a lot easier than the TV screen they originally had. I really enjoy doing Naughty America Live; it's so fun and easy. I talk about me for a half hour then get off...that's a good day, in my opinion. I think the most interesting aspect of it all is that there's always another girl, or two, there with you so, you kind of hang out with this other random person all day. This time, I had Addison O'Riley. She's a real sweet girl. From Florida. But, you know, no sparks flew between us or anything. She's really pretty, too. I was sitting on the floor at the coffee table eating my lunch and stole this shot because I had such a good view. :)



I did the gym cam first...


Then the secretary...


I did the party girl one last and I think it was a bit of a disaster. I really dislike and do not own "club" wear. I just can't bring myself to spend money on such attire. So, I felt silly showing off clothes I don't really like to wear. They just should've let me be naked the whole time.

That following weekend was also a disaster. My brother and his girlfriend came into town to visit. My brother and I are pretty close and we've always gotten along very well so, I was really excited to have him out here. I had only met his girlfriend once prior to this weekend and I wasn't too impressed with her. She's not a bad person or anything she was just very boring and plain. She was like a Mexican version of Anne from Arrested Development. I think my brother could do a bit better. Anyway, all of that aside, I love my brother and I want him to be happy, which she seems to make him. I thought, well, I'll give her another chance, maybe I just need to spend more time with her. SO, I had the brilliant idea that we could go to Six Flags when they came out here. I had been wanting to go for awhile now and we all LOVE rollercoasters...but guess who doesn't? Mexican Anne. She wants to go to Disneyland. Everyone that visits from out of town wants to go to Disneyland because for most people, they haven't been since they were a little kid. After going so many times, though, it gets boring; waiting in those lines just isn't worth it anymore. I agreed to go with the condition that we all get wasted beforehand. It's really the best way to do Disneyland. I spent WAY too much money at the bar for the lot of us and while the rest of us were sufficiently wasted, my brother and "Anne" were barely tipsy. There was no liveliness in them, which isn't how my brother usually is in situations like that. So anyway, the day just kind of sucked hanging out with this girl I didn't like much and the weird version of my brother that her presence created. I eventually just got so fed up with them and the lines that I went to the car and waited for them to want to leave. I was just so disappointed because it wasn't how I expected the day to be. My brother and I have since texted and everything seems to be ok. I haven't told him I don't like his girlfriend because I don't think that's fair. I'm just going to have to learn to deal with her til they break up or something.

There was some awesomeness to be had at Disneyland. I grabbed Darth Vader's Lego package...


And, as drunk as possible and pretty high, we headed straight to Space Mountain (of course) and waited in line for about 5 minutes before we heard it was shut down (of course). So, Captain EO was right there and we got there as they were letting people in, did the asshole move and sat down right in center instead of walking all the way down the aisle. =D It blew my mind! It was, at the time, the best thing I had ever laid eyes on and I was having a blast! I bought the rainbow shirt he wears at the giftshop! But yeah, after that, it was pretty much downhill. HA!

I've been trying to go to the gym more often. I'm perpetually trying to do that, actually. I absolutely hate doing it but I know it's healthy and I'd really like to make a habit out of it. I got this app that uses interval training to help you eventually be able to run 5K without stopping. I really like it. It keeps the treadmill interesting. And then, well, I LOVE my Shake Weight. I think it's working.

Last Friday I had a casting call in the valley. I live downtown, a good 30 miles away, 45-60min with traffic. I get there and the casting director tells me they made a mistake and they asked a bunch of girls to come in to cast for a male part. She said sorry and she hoped I hadn't driven too far. :( I decided to not make the trip to the valley a total waste and stopped by the ATKingdom offices to pick up some free porn of myself. (Thanks so much, guys!) They showed me a few photosets of mine and my g/g scene and filmed my reactions. You can see it on their YouTube page.

Earlier that week a good friend of mine got dumped by what he considered to be his soulmate. He was pretty crushed about it and since he's a boy, he decided to cope by making all of us party our asses off that weekend. I really don't like going out to bars and drinking but there are rare occasions that I will: this, birthdays, weddings, funerals, and Disneyland. It was actually a lot of fun while it lasted but that's just not my scene. Anyway, I take a lot of pictures of myself when I'm drunk at home and actually when I'm sober, too...it's inspired me to make this album. It's basically all the photos I take of myself with my phone plus some other random stuff. I can be quite vain and I enjoy photos of myself.

Scott Pilgrim vs the World was fucking awesome. I saw it twice. If you haven't seen it, do so, please. I'm very disappointed they didn't put the Clash at Demonhead song on the soundtrack. It was a really good song.

On Wednesday, I got a call from my stepmom telling me that she had found out about my little career. Apparently a friend of hers called her and told her about it. What a weird fuckin friend. She said that I had to tell my dad or she was going to, stressing that I should tell him myself. I'm not ashamed of what I do or who knows about it, they're just not words I want to come out of my mouth towards my dad. I felt very "what he doesn't know, can't hurt him" about it. I would've preferred that my stepmom tell him, it'd be a hell of a lot easier on me but, I knew the right thing to do was tell him myself. I've been doing things my parents don't approve of my whole life so I know how to set it up but my dad also now recognizes this set up so, he didn't sound as surprised as I expected him to be. He was very calm about it...asked how long I had been doing it, how I got into it, if I was going to continue doing it, and of course, if I was safe. It's so funny the misperception people have of the industry. Maybe I'm just lucky but I've never encountered any hard drugs, or rape, or mistreatment of girls in any way. All my shoots are pretty damn professional. So, he kind of just took it all in, didn't offer up any sort of opinion and I didn't ask for one. I know he's not going to disown me and he just wants me to be happy but I know it's got to be rather shocking and disappointing. It feels good to know I don't have to lie to him anymore about where I work and that things are out in the open now. I'm sure the whole ordeal isn't over yet. Once he gets over the shock, I'm sure he'll have plenty to say. Now I just have to worry about the extended family finding out eventually. My mom's known for awhile now. She doesn't approve, obviously, but she's been pretty accepting and supportive.

So, then, I called my mom to tell her about the whole situation. And after we chatted for awhile she told me something interesting. My mom and stepdad still own and rent out the house that they lived in when I was 5 to 14 years old. Well, the guy they were renting it out to is moving out and my mom offered it to me. The rent is the same as what I pay now for my tiny studio downtown. It's a three bedroom with a huge backyard and it's very fucking tempting. The guy moves out in the middle of October and I have til September to decide if I want to take the house or not. I really like the house. I want...no, I need more space. A backyard for my dogs would be nice. I don't have to worry about a credit check or security deposit. Or even a lease, if I decide I don't like it I could just move back to LA. It would give me more time to go to school, to cook more. More time to work on and shoot for my own website. I could finally start webcamming. BUT... Do I really want to move back to Arizona? Do I really want to move away from LA? Do I want to be one of those girls that flies in for a week every couple weeks to shoot? Can I? Do I want to restrict my schedule like that? Do I want to do all that traveling? Is what I gain worth what I lose? Yeah, tough fucking decision.



Anyway, on a totally sweet, I'm freakin awesome note...I got to shoot for Vivid. Not a huge deal, really, but it's fun to get stoked on stuff like that. They're one of the biggest companies and I had never shot for them before. I got a bit of a tan and my nails done for it. It was a pretty good day. I had a little trouble finding the place but I had gotten the wrong call time so I was early and it didn't matter. The location owner was a bit weird and even though the director and myself were early, he wouldn't let us in the house til 11. He also had a lock on his fridge and locked myself and the photographer outside when we went to shoot a striptease. I hope it all turned out ok because it was really hot outside. We did the actual scene inside but it was still really hot. Oh, that was such a good fucking scene! Tommy Gunn is an absolute delight! I have no idea how many times I came, I just know I kept cumming and cumming, it was like waves the whole time. I can't wait to see this one.





Hailie James and Charley Chase were also on set. Hailie has awesome tits so of course I made her show me, then took photographic evidence. So hot.



That was the first time I'd met Charley, too. She's so sweet and so pretty. I stole pictures of her, too.



After the shoot, I went to Target and returned some things and bought some stuff, stopped at In N Out, then went home and realized I had done all that with lipstick on my cheek from kissing Charley goodbye. It made me feel adorable. :)


So, that night I went to Amoeba to get the first season of Being Human. I caught the latest episode and was quite intriqued. I'm all caught up now and I'm completely hooked. It's quite good and I apologize to all those that tried to tell me to watch it sooner. I also got Pete & Pete...mostly for nostalgia but more mostly to see Artie again. And then, searching through the blu rays for the new Evangelion movie, I look up and see Moonwalker. I've never teared up so quickly in my whole life. I know it sounds lame but that movie meant the world to me when I was a little kid. I had it on VHS and I had painted my initials on the tape with nail polish and I watched it whenever I was feeling sad and needed cheering up. The last time I saw it, I was in 5th grade. The tape got lost when I moved in 7th grade and that shit is expensive on eBay. Plus, who has a VCR anymore? So, to see that DVD in front of me, on blu ray, was so comforting and nostalgic, I like zoned out for a second and had tears down my cheeks. I know it sounds really lame but it's like finding out you hadn't lost your childhood blankie and your grandma had it this whole time and she patched it up all nice for you. Yeah.

Anyway, I'm going to Vegas on Wednesday to shoot for Brazzers. I love those trips. Traveling is relaxing to me for some reason. I like the solitude of the crowded spaces. The Vegas Brazers guys are pretty great to shoot for, too.

Then, Thursday I'm shooting for Adam & Eve. You know, you should just check out the calendar. There's not much there but there's stuff there.

I had a scene come out recently that I REALLY liked. I even bought a month's subscription so I could watch the whole scene (even though I didn't). It's my first b/g/g and there's practically a whole g/g scene before the guy comes in. Also, I attempt to use a stripper pole. It's not sexy at all but I look pretty so, whatever. I didn't watch much of the b/g/g part but the g/g stuff is pretty nice. This is the link: TeenBFF Here are some sample pics to entice you:







Also, there's a new set of me up at Ambya...




And, lastly, this comes out soon:


They're having a DVD release party on the 3rd at the Highlands nightclub (6801 Hollywood Blvd 90028) and I'm going to be there. And I'm going to party. And hopefully make out with Tanner Mayes. Maybe. We'll see. But you should go, just in case I do. ;)

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